Okay...so I'm not starting on cosplays until around....mid-December, by then I should have enough saved paychecks that I won't be worried when I'm buying fabric.

Erm...drawing wise I went on a trace n' change spree as you can see in my gallery...and my mom's thinking about getting me a drawing tablet so when I do I'll color them in with it X3

I fell under another 'lost all motivation i'll just sit in a corner' spell. Not fun. Came outta no-where though I think I know what triggered it.

I've realized I have what I call a 3rd Wheel Complex. That means that I don't like feeling like a useless wheel and when I do I wanna leave whatever's causing me to feel that way... But I also have the same problem with feeling my presence is neglected. I openly admit for both these reasons I only take HALF the blame, because it's just as easy for someone else to start a conversation with me. On with that...

I got into this game called Perfect World International and I joined a faction, or guild, where I have the strange intuition that no one likes talking to me. I was invited when I was barely at a level 2, when I was later told they allowed people at a level 10. So I figured I annoyed them with my newb talk. But I also notice other things...like when I say a random comment that's perfect for having a fun conversation...goes unnoticed and the people change the subject. I've given up talking to them only when I really need help with something.

But I also noticed it's rather easy to make friends on this site, cause I was bored and watching the people in the market place and two strangers nearby became friends in about ten minutes...But as all MMORPGs go you have your nice people, your stupid people and your just plain snotty better then you level 3847593864 people. I wanna try to find the nice people...and maybe someone who knows what its like to be a level 21 XD

The people in the faction are all over level 30 so theres some sense of alienation for me cause I feel so low...while they all talk about things like...levels and quests and stuff I'm not even close to understanding so it makes me feel even more like a newb.

Then one day i was invited to go along with one of the people of the faction...which when thinking about it I thought it'd be fun. Until I realized that since i'm still a young level I'm not as fast as most of the people. Winged Elf's are one of the slowest travelers which sucks but hey I can fly and avoid most monsters and heal myself so pffftt. But when your a low level trying to keep up with a higher level its like trying to race a car going 40 while youre on a bike...

So it took me twice as long to get to the destination and when we got there WE WERE IN LEVEL 39 MONSTER VILLE. That means these monsters can kill me in three hits and go after me without provocation...I know i butchered that word but anywho, needles to say I died pretty fast and personally I was happy about it acuse it meant I could be revived in a town far away so I could run back to my home town and just not leave ><

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and yet somehow this game is still addicting. ...My character lost her first kiss to a panda.... No you read that correctly, a panda. In this game you have three races, Elves, Humans and Beastials. In that you have two other classes. Beastials you get a couple options, panda, tiger, lion and wolf. But the sucky thing is no matter whihc you pick, when you get the option to turn into an animal its always a white tiger, anyway. They have this option that between a female character and a male they acn 'embrace' which I thought meant you could just be hugged and or carried,which is possible. I got a full front view of my elf kissing my friends panda and I was like AUUUGHHHSNGLSNLDSDH WTF

....we now pretend that never happened..






On the school front I'm no doing so good in my writing class. And what's annoying me is that when I tell people that they always say "But you're so good at writing!" Now if a writing class was about writing fanfiction then I'd be passing the damn thing. But a writing class isn't about writing what we want it's writing essays and articles and all that crap, which I'm no good at. I put effort into my work, I really do, I spend time researching, but it's like my writing class in high school, I ALWAYS got about half the score everyone else got....even when I try my hardest, so I decided so long as I feel happy with the amount of effort I put in it I dont care if I fail. And my mom feels the same way so I don't feel as pressured to pass it.

My reeading class is going better, it's easy, but she hardly sets any due dates so I let the assignments pile up....not a good idea actually...

I've also decided I'm going to cosplay my elf character, who you can see in my gallery, I have a shot of her. I'll post up the refrence shots I took too >w<

Oh yaeh, and we're fixing up the house. We now have a new counter and sink and I have a new sink and toilet in my bathroom. Oh and new tile.

Right now the guys retiling the kithcen and part of the livingroom..

I dont really like the color of the new counter...but I took pictures of what was UNDER the carpet and the counter, it's odd XD

Cheap tile and funny wood...